ugh

I told myself that I wasn't going to weigh myself or measure and just go by how I 'feel'. Well screw that - I want to see numbers changing (for the better) on the scale. I want to use less fabric measuring tape when I wrap it around myself. I want to feel smaller, look smaller, BE SMALLER. Anyone who is trying to lose weight, if they are being 100% honest, will tell you the same thing - as much as you don't want it to be about quick results, you also want to see some results. So I weighed myself today, up another freaking pound! I am back to where I was last summer - all that hard work down the drain. I feel so defeated. So time for more drastic measures. I'm cutting! Goodbye pasta, byebye bread, c'ya rice, so long boxed food, peace out sugar (in all of it's beautiful forms). I'm cutting them out. After a week I'll bring back whole grains, and fruit sugars. I don't know what I'll do if this doesn't work. This has to work. It will work. I will see results, even little itty bitty baby step results, and I'll keep on keeping on and make healthy living a part of my families lives. IT. WILL. WORK.