Changing

This morning I woke up to "nononono NO!". I knew, right from the begining, that today was going to be one of *those* days. Trent didn't want to eat breakfast, didn't want to drink milk, didn't want to pick up his toys, didn't want to sit nicely in time out,didn't want to sit quietly in his room, didn't want to stop throwing his toys at me, didn't want to talk nicely to me, nononono NO! He's been sick for the last few days, very needy and very sensitive. Shawn's been working lots so he's not rolling in until 7:45 or 8pm (I'm so thankful his job is keeping him in town right now, don't get me wrong). Today was getting close to breaking point. I felt like I need a mommy time out. I've had no one to share in the parenting, no one to tag me out when I need a 5 minute breather, no one to give me a pat on the back and tell me I handled that difficult situation well.
Last night at our last nutrition class we talked about changing our thought patterns. Changing things like "when I'm stressed I eat a bag of oreos" to "when I get stressed I'll go for a walk". I though, it seems to easy in theory to replace a negative behaviour with a positive, healthy one, but how easy is it when you are up to your eyeballs in the muck?
So this morning, after feeling like my world was collapsing on me. After feeling like I am a terrible mother for needing a break, wanting to run away for a minute and sitting down on the kitchen floor for a cry. I decided to try to change. When I feel overwhelmed/stressed with parenting I will try to workout as soon as I can. So without saying anything to Trent, I pulled out my workout stuff and got to it. Do I feel better? 120% better. Do I still feel like running away and crying? Nope, not really. Do I still need a break? I sure do, and you know what? I deserve a break too!