I am the same size I was before I got pregnant. But so much of me, besides my body, has changed. Back then I was a second year college student. I was free to go out every weekend, even if I never used that freedom. I usually stayed up past midnight, facebooking, studying, writing papers. On the inside I was so shy and scared of the person I was becoming because it was new and I was unfolding, but I practiced fake it til ya make it.
Now I feel like I am firmly planted in this body. I know who I am, what defines me... well most of the time. Even when I feel terrified to do something, like talk to another mom, join a gym, drive, I do it. I don't make excuses for myself nearly as much anymore and I promise myself so much more. I don't stand for fair weather friends, or liars, or poisonous people in my life - or the life of my son, for that matter. I have made some amazing friends over the last year, I have realized which of my friends are true.
I am the same size I was before my life completely changed, but I'm pretty much who I wanted to be when I grew up.
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