Not too fast, is fast enough

So, it's not a lot. I'm not standing in my old jeans and holding the waistband out soooo far. But I'm not starving either. When I first jumped on this 'get healthy train' I was so stuck. I wanted a quick fix. I wanted a diet and exercise plan where I could see fast and furious results. I didn't think about what kind of damage I could do to myself, I didn't think that I could get even worse. I tried diet pills. I tried limiting my calories, which was crazy stupid because I wasn't even eating enough as it was, and what I was eating was garbage 50% of the time. I made excuses; so tired because of the baby, can't go to the gym because I have no car, winter keeps us inside and everyone wants to eat comfort food during the cold snaps! Jo kept saying "eat more!". I'm sure on multiple occasions she felt like she was bouncing her head off a concrete wall.
A couple months ago I had a huge setback. It took me forever to get past 163, I was stuck there forever and then I slowly started to go down. Then in, what felt like, a single day it was back up to 164 with the scale creeping back up. I decided then that I wasn't going to let excuses get in my way. I decided that maybe I should listen to what Jo says, even if it goes against what I *think* should work - because it WASN'T working. It was time to stop being scared (and that is a whole nother blog for another day!). I took a nutrition class at JDFT and started actually listening. I started to make time in my day to workout or dance or be active again. I started paying more attention to what I was putting in my mouth and fiddling with my carb/fat/protein ratios. I started looking in the mirror again.
So, maybe I haven't lost a crazy amount of weight. This mommy still has a lot of jiggle to her. But I'm a work in progress. And I've come a long way. Slow and steady wins the race, and when I've finally got to my goal weight I will have changed my lifestyle. I won't go back. But if I do gain weight again (baby number2??) I am learning the skills to deal with it in a healthy way. At least I'll never starve myself fat again.