Week One

My first assignment for Nurtition and Motivation class is underway. I started tracking my food right away - which my hubby rolled his eyes to "what's this? why are you writing everything down? why do you have to do it now? blah? blah-blah?" . Even with the eye rolling and questions, I've recorded everything, even the stuff that I'm ashamed about.

The goal section isn't too hard right now either. Week one: eat breakfast everyday & track food. Week two: continue with breakfast, make sure to drink 8 glasses of water (80oz). My third and forth week will be to continue what I've started but to also add in more fruits/veggies. My 3 month fitness goal is to be working out 3+ times, working on my cardio, in preparations for getting into running - once everthing melts. My lifetime goal: to make healthy living such a normal thing for my family that I don't have to second guess it.

The first page is where I'm struggling. I can pull motivational and inspirational quotes out of my ass. I can make it look pretty and peppy. But I'm drawing a blank for a role model. Am I to pick someone who I respect for their weight, their personality, their lifestyle? Should I pick someone who I think resembles the qualities I have in myself, or want in myself? Should I look up to someone who I will never be able to measure up to? There is Oprah and Kristi Allie, both of whom have publicly struggled with their weight, both are beautiful woman, and both will never be the itty bitty things they once were. I can relate (well except for the beautiful part, but that's not really what we're here to look at). There's Scarlett Johansson, America Ferrera, Jennifer Lopez; all of which are considared to be 'curvy'. All of them have at some point been told that they are not the ideal hollywood body type, all of them have gotten flack for not being a size 2. But they are all still leading ladies, they are all beautiful and respected and they seem very comfortable in their own skin. It's funny when you google "pear shaped celebrities" the people who show up; barely anyone I can relate to. That's my problem; I want to find someone I can relate to, physically even just a little bit and someone who has struggled with weight, someone who feels good about themselves no matter what they look like. I'm not likely to find that in anyone who has a camera trained on them.