Simple Things

I've had a rough few days. Hubby being gone, baby not sleeping, preschool on spring break and going out of his mind because the weather/baby brother/overwhelmed mommy kept him inside a lot. Ever have one of those mommy breakdowns where you are seriously 3 seconds away from putting the kids in a safe place and heading for the hills? I was there on Sunday. I couldn't see any good in the world because I was so clouded up with frustration and anxiety and loneliness.
But I got over it. When I wanted to sit on the kitchen floor and eat my way through the chocolate chip stash... my dad called and talked me off that ledge. When I wanted to jump in the van and zoom away from my crying.all.day.long child... facebook popped up and I saw people reaching out their love and support for me. When I was feeling so sorry for myself... someone poked my inner bear and I got mad (which strangely enough woke me out of the funk).
Then, like magic, I could see beauty in my days again. Yesterday I chatted with my cousin about an upcoming trip, I vented with my brother, I shot the sh*t with a good friend... all so good for my soul. And maybe the baby didn't nap, and the boy was still bouncing off walls - but I didn't want to run away from them.
And today! Today even the simple things are bring me joy. It's amazing when you step out of the funk how bright colours are again and how there is music dancing on the air. Drinking clean (good tasting) water. Joy. Baby giggles. Joy. Boy cuddles. Joy. NAPPING BABY. SUPER DUPER JOY. Getting out by myself. Joy. Hubby taking both kids downstairs after supper so I can tidy up and put away the kitchen without a cling on? JOY!
Sometimes it really is the little things in a day that can add up and make it turn sour. And sometimes it's little things that can mean the world to you too. So make sure you notice the little things; the simple things; the things that get overlooked when your clouded up.