I have gone back and forth about writing this blog today. I left the gym feeling alright and my day slowly steadily declines. I want to show the real me and the real changes (or lack of changes) that are happening in my life... so here is the "How I felt about today" portion of my food journal.
Part of me felt like eating McD's was a big failure. The other part of me is saying 'hey, you've worked hard and haven't had it in so long'. But really, let's face it - today I felt defeated from one step on the scale. I'm back up and after I saw the number I was done. Shawn was home, I was hungry from working out and going swimming, I was tired, there wasn't much time to make lunch - all convenient excuses.
I really wish my head and heart would communicate better. My logical head is telling me to screw the scale, just eat well and do the work and we'll see the results again. But my heart is yelling "HEY FATTY! WHAT MAKES YOU THINK YOU CAN DO THIS?!?!" Gah, shut up dang heart!
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