Disapointment

I decided today was a good day to do my weight and measurements. Way to ruin a perfectly good day! It's been over a month since I stepped on the scale - a month that I have eaten breakfast every day, but also a month where the cold, grey, bitterness of winter kept us inside, inactive and snacky. I am UP 3lbs. I am up a full inch and a half on my chest, waist, and thighs (each!!!). The only measurement that didn't move is my thighs (thanks God!). UGH! So disapointed. I feel like such a failure - some people make this whole process look easy and it's just not easy for me. Maybe I've screwed my metabolism up so badly from years of not giving my body enough fuel and crash diets. Maybe I just never learned to eat right or the proper cues for what my body really needs. Maybe I'm just fooling myself and I just don't 'get it'. I feel like I have so many roadblocks ahead of me that some days it would really just be easier to sit down and eat a giant poutine!